March 2013

It's been a really long time since I've last blogged and today is just one of those days I need to say what's on my mind. I've been on Pinterest trying to get ideas for Haley's birthday party since it is right around the corner....YIKES... she will be 3 in May! Where has the time gone? I started thinking about how she is about to turn another year older and how I truly want to eventually have another baby... yes, I am quite content with Haley and I know I'm young and still have plenty of time yada yada yada yeah yeah... but I don't want Haley and another baby to be THAT far apart in age. I mean my gosh, my sister and I are 12 years apart and it seems like just as I was old enough to remember she was moving out of the house, getting married, and having a baby of her own. I don't want that for Haley. So you guessed it... I'm wanting another one! Baby fever? I wouldn't call it that. I'm just wanting a sibling for Haley and would love to have a bigger family. I'm comfortable where I'm at now, but I'm feeling like I'm ready. I was thinking trying at the end of the year! I only live this life once and can't go back in time once it passes. I know I have bigger and better things to worry about but seriously, can't I just say how I feel without feeling judged?

So of course I always bring my thoughts to Trey. As usual he agrees that he wants another baby too but then comes the house issue. Not enough room. I say we will make it work but then he says it's just unrealistic. I almost feel like I have to "sacrifice" a part of my life because of the house we live in! I guess whatever happens happens. I will just put another one of my "worries" into God's basket and let HIM worry about it while I pray. I remember that from church a very long time ago, putting all your worries in a basket and handing it to God. Went I went to Florida last year Trey said he had a surprise for me when I come home. When I came home he walked me into the bathroom and pointed to the wall next to my sink. He put a large decorative sticker that says "Worry about nothing, Pray about everything". I love how it's there so I never forget.